Behind that fence, lives three children. They've all been diagnosed with Autism and life is sometimes hard. And sometimes it's not- they play and throw their blue and rainbow colored balls over the fence into my parents' yard. I walk down the stairs consumed by feelings about my own family. It's been hard growing up here at times and I've been long gone but I can't help to feel the sadness that's still there. I shake it off because I'm tired of carrying other people's feelings and as I walk out into the backyard I see this blue shiny ball being lit by our happy yellow sun and it reminds me to just breathe in the air. I am alive and so are they and we are all doing the best we can. They in their world and me in mine--two distinct universes. It's hard to love being many worlds apart but I know if I just breathe and honor all that is, it will get more simple-like that blue shiny ball resting on the lawn of my parents' home where I am also suddenly reminded of the many beautiful experiences we shared together. And so in this moment, I breathe into that instead of the suffering.